Searching for a strong emotional meaning and purpose don't have one yet

Hallo guys 23 years guy here I finally know whats been beating me up
Lack of strong emotional meaning and purpose that's why I bail out when losing interest in a particular project I have never felt this bad before i tried some questioning my self but that didn't help
I feel like crying saying this feels weird I feel like a dweep

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